My Last First Day of School

Tomorrow will be my very last first day of school. Well, at least that last first day of school since I started school as a little one. But I did just found out that I am accepted to Asbury!!! So in a way this is not the very end of my educational career, but it is the end of a very interesting chapter of my life.

To finally be so close to graduation brings with it the whole gamut of human emotions (for me anyways I am an emotional person). While I  am excited to be back in the classroom and see friends and profs, I can't help but feel apprehensive about the future. I love learning (not so much writing and researching) but I am eager to get out there and work. I want to start doing the work I have been training for! It is also really scary. I still feel like there is a wall between me and the real world. Even though marriage has shown me a taste of what it means to be grown up and more responsible and all, graduating and leaving IWU is still like leaving home for the first time.

This is where I became and adult. This is the place where Kourtney and I would stay up really late dancing to TLC and watching stupid YouTube videos. This is the place I let go and told God that His plan was better than mine. And because of that I met the man that I love and married. I have laughed and cried and failed and succeeded. I have changed in so many ways yet stayed the same in many also. I love the history here. I don't want to leave it, but at the same time leaving can make coming back so much sweeter.

Like I have done ever since my mom started letting me pick out my own clothes, I laid out my clothes that I want to wear. I have my backpack packed. I have organized my notebooks and folders in complimenting colors and double checked that I have my alarms set for the right times. I have jitters even though I have done this so many times before. I don't want time to slip away like it always seems to when you work hard and have fun. I want this to be my best semester ever. It isn't to late to change for the better. It isn't to late to make life-long friends. It isn't too late to try all the things I was too afraid to as a freshman.

God has brought me so far in my life. I am almost ready to turn the page and start over again, but I am so blessed to have one last semester to treasure all the wonderful things that we have here at IWU. I might not always act like it, but this is one of the best places in the world.

Here's to the beginning of the end :)