Today was the first day of the fall semester at IWU and the beginning of Aaron and my senior year. I had mixed feelings and still do because I don't know if I'm sad or happy. I don't really want to have a bunch of work to do but on the other hand I love learning so I kinda do. After my first day though I realized how much I really do love this place and this time in my life. So many things have changed since I was a freshman. It struck me today how different I really am. God really does work miracles :)
Despite the rising anxiety of assignment due dates and the mountains of reading I have this feeling of a settling peace. Something awesome is going to happen this year just like it does every year and there will be some muddy spots along the way. God asks us as believers to get dirty sometimes. We have to in order to let Him clear us up. My goal and desire is to make my spirituality the forefront. I want that to be what defines me. I have let it be a subsection of my identity in the world and I can't let that stay the same. I am new in Christ and if I'm not showing that to others than what am I doing?
This is my last year as a student here and it is finally time that I dig in deeper and let God run havoc in my head and heart. I feel Him pulling me to the brink of something crazy and wonderful but I have to dig in the dirt for a little bit first so He can show me some of the things He needs from me. So I apologize to my papers ahead of time if I don't give you as much attention as I should but I want to make God know He is more important. I have a feeling He will do little miracles all the way and despite what my doubting mind will try to tell me there is time to love the Lord with all your heart, soul, body and mind and still get your homework done on time ;)
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